I've been flying by the seat of my pants lately....

....because I'm only 23 and I can.

Guess what? I quit my job last Friday! I've been meaning to post this awhile back, but I've been so busy LIVING my life to the fullest!

Why did I quit my job? It's a long story, but lets must say, it was time. I was definitely not happy there and the management made sure I was not happy. Although there were a couple girls there that made going to work easier, it wasn't enough. Last Monday was my breaking point. I was holding back tears all day. On the way home, I bawled. I didn't have to work Tuesday because one of the doctors was out of town, but when Wednesday came, I was bawling to work. When my brother found this out, he gave me the "quitting pep talk."

He told me that I deserved better and that I shouldn't be crying when I go to work. He thought he was happy at his previous employment, but now he is working for L3 and he now knows what true happiness is when you are working. That's what I want.

Happiness is a choice....yes, I know this. But it is important to find a job that on days you aren't happy you have a happy job to lean on.

I have gained a whole new appreciation of faith and I have been quite surprised with myself and how I'm dealing with all of this. Usually I would freak out and never just quit a job without having a back up.

I know that without a doubt I will find "THE" job I can be happy at. I have jobs that I would love to do, but they are just the waiting game in order to apply for them.

Good news though! I had an interview just Monday. Semi-bad news, they filled the position. BUT they liked me enough that they are trying to see if they can create another position for me. So I'm waiting to hear back on that. I'll keep you posted!

I'm happy. I'm happy with myself. I'm happy that I'm doing what I want...for once. Instead of wishing I was doing something....I'm doing it. Every night before I go to bed, I write down a list of goals I WANT to accomplish the next day. Hence the title, flying by the seat of my pants. So far I've gone to the gym more, read more, gone to the Draper temple (never been to that one), visited my grandpa, gone to Relief Society activities, applied to jobs (of course), got my tires rotated, cleaned my room/bathroom/mini-house, etc.

I'm extremely blessed to have so much support through this from my family and friends! It's amazing how happy I am when I'm going through, what others may feel is a pretty big trial.

I had a friend tell me that I haven't been the same for the past couple months. He then followed up with, "But now you're back!"

It will work out, because it always does. Sometimes you have to make the first move before Heavenly Father will step in and take care of the rest.

So if you hear of anything or anyone hiring....let me know! :)

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On a side note, my nephews birthday was Sunday but we celebrated it on Friday. He asked if I would make his cake back in December. Of course I couldn't resist. He wanted a batman cake and that is exactly what he got. You should have seen the kids face when I brought it out!

When I came home Friday morning, after quitting my job, I said to Britton, "Guess what?!"

He responded, "What?" I replied, "I just quit my job!" He gave me this confused look and then asked, "Why the heck did you do that?!" Hahaha....love him (he is only 8 by the way). I told him it was for adult reasons.

When I brought the cake out and cut him a slice, as he was chewing, he said, "Jessie, it's a good thing you quit your job because now you should be a baker!" Thanks Britton, I may just think about that! :)